Lately I've been feeling weird. I act weird.

Weird in a way that I couldn't describe. Bad weird? I dun think so, weird in a way that I felt I fell again.

I couldn't think straight again, with my emotion conquer my every single move, I felt I'm weak again. To fall for my emotional heart instead of my brain. Why must I be this bitch when I'm being totally rational few month back. I was rational before.... Sigh! Why must I ruin my own life wherever I fall in love? O am I jus playin a fool with my heart? Messing my own mind?

I know I should be rational, be the person I am before. To think, act and talk as an adult. To stop thinkin about ppl ruining my life and me ended up ruining it.

I knew my life will b messed up if I persist being like this, no people would stand my behaviour, my idiot emotional me.

I knew I need to speak wats in my mind, taking rationale to it, but I also knew no one would understand me.

Maybe I have communication problem where I couldn't express myself enough during verbal conversation.

As much as I hope, I knew there's no one out there to understand me, to feel wat I felt, to see what I've seen.

The only thing that someone know is that I showed temper n being childish.

Who am I? Where am I? Mayling is not the same again....