after one tired day of work, i finally knocked off, met my guy, started to head for some happy hour. a few drinks after, continued to another place later. and i finally sat down, i feel good about it, i felt good when my guy is by my side, hugging me and i felt a strong sense of security. he was good to me, he cares for me, he is even sensitive enough, to actually move and act exactly what i wanted. after a tired night out, either him taking care of me, or me taking care of him, we both slept, and never failed to hold each other hand while sleeping. i remembered, to wake up, with a light kiss, and i saw a huge grin across his face when i opened my eyes, i thought myself, i wanted to wake up everyday like that, 'coz it plaster a smile on my face, and i'm happy. i never thought i would be this happy, like to laugh from my heart and jump out from bed just to hug him. petty petty stuff, makes me happy, i never felt so wanted, and loved by someone, and i could be myself, no pretending at all, and from time to time, i thought, i finally found someone, that truly care and love who i am.

yes he is, the man ive been waiting for. each time, i failed to see his imperfection, its because, of his every moves, seems so perfect to me, i even caught myself daydreaming of jus leaning myself on him. he seemed to have the power, or something to just take all my burden away, all the sadness just melt away, with him, i dont need to make decision, i dont need to pretend something im not, and ahhh.. i cant write more to show how comfy i am with him. i know i did not talk much about him, he makes my life shine again, everything with him is always great and i loves him for it. -the end- i really miss him....